Escapology

VERY long time.
Ive decided I like this place cuz no one on here knows me in the flesh. Pretty much everyone on my myspace does. So maybe I should pour my feelings out here in future.

Anyway.... no time for feelings... lol.

Just a quick post to say... heyyy, Jozey the slasher is back [well.... more back than she has been the past year anyways].
Updated profile. Basically just copy and pasted my myspace, and added and edited some things.

A big hello to the people I used to chat to on here. Hope ur all still here and well and good.

TTFN anyways.

~ Jozey xxx

Listen!
We've got a situation
There always putting us down
We are the generation
Can't keep us underground
Is it my imagination
Or do you feel good?

We're on a one way mission
We can take it or die
We are the sunshine nation
Go tell the satellites
Is it my imagination
Or do you feel good?

What a day, What a day, What a day
What a day, What a day, What a day
What a day, What a day, What a day
What a day, these are the days
Running the world
It's the time of our lives
And baby we wont ever die
cos we're the young we're alright

We've gotta stop this feeling
Cos i don't wanna live twice
we better start believing
before we run out of time
Is it my imagination
Or do you feel good?

What a day, What a day, What a day
What a day, What a day, What a day
What a day, What a day, What a day
What a day, these are the days

Running the world
It's the time of our lives
And baby we wont ever die
cos we're the young we're alright

Running the world
It's the time of our lives
And baby we wont ever die
Fight till we fall
Standing tall
Time is on our side
Cos we're the young we're alright

... Best song in my universe... seriously... nothing has compared... even Girl all the Bad Guys Want... never thought anything would beat that.... but this does/ has/ whatever.... I well and truley love and bum it completely....
Does anyone else agree they should have put the piano solo in the album version though [if neone else heard it on the star girl single]... cuz the album version is better [more Danny and the eipc intro] but Im just in love with that piano solo.... seriously... the guitar one doesnt compare
But aaaaaaaaaaaaaanyway..... as if im rambling about a song for a diray entry lol. I will stop, I swear. Meh.
Just seriously.... my ultimate song <3
Need to write man!
~ Dozey

Well... sweet dreams LJ mateys...
I'm off to bed.
Life's tirin at the moment lol or I'm just lazy.... Maybe abit of both.
Had a good-ish weekend. Stace stopped over *dramatic music* for the first time in forever... hopefully her mum will lighten up now and stop being such an insane selfish control freak... we shall see.
I do feel sorry for her atm but yea... that's another story.
Aaaaaaanyway... my boss is a biatch.... and i do NOT say stuff like that about people that dont deserve it... I swear. As someone recently told me.... I see a good side to everyone and everything... so yea.... but seriously... my boss... grrrr. Could have killed her this weekend. Curse bosses.
But anyway.... thats enough bitchin I think.
Tiiired. Night night all. Stories that are presently cookin up in my head coming soon.... so keep an eye out lol :D

~ DJ

On and on we carry through the fears
Disappointed faces of your peers
Take a look at me
'Cause I can not care at all
Do or die
You'll never make me
because the world
Will never take my heart
Though you try
You'll never break me
We Wanna Know
We want to play this part
Won't explain
Or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed,
I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer
For all the broken
Listen here,
Because it's who we are
I'm just a man,
I'm not a hero
Just a boy
Who had to sing this song
Im just a man,
I'm not a hero
I
Don't
Care

We'll carry on

Meh.... if only I could really be that strong.
Ok... so I may seem like Im being slightly over the top, considering what that song is actually about.... but I'm hurt... last night didnt go so well for me. I'm at a loss and I dunno what to do anymore [Stace related]... and people were telling me to give up... even Stace just said it... which of course... doesnt help... but I cant... I cant be that strong. I cant live without her. That's love for ya... even if it isnt with a guy im gonna marry or anything like that... even if it is with my best mate... God... I sound so weird, emo and obssessive... but if only I could tell the whole story... meh.

Music helps... we will sort it... wont we?

~ Jozey

Take that title quote into consideration... its true... Make the most of being alive and young.... We only live once.... if you believe that. But yea.... dunno why im being phylosophical.... Had a discussion that related to above subject recently and yea... do what makes u happy and all that.

Aaaaanyway.... tonights been awesome... even though i am so bad at postin... I really should keep it to at least one chapter a day or like one on the mornin, one on the night... but im inpatient... especially whe people ask me so nicely lol.
Ah well.... ive had no complaints and its certainly kept me occupied... Been soooo fun. I love writing [even though I havent been tonight] and getting feedback!
My commenters rock! Love to u all but im afraid to announce there will be no more tonight.... will be tomorrow no doubt... but i am gonna have to go get and early night for a change.... am feeling rather drained.

More of an update and personal rantings someday soon :)

~ Dozey Jozey ~

Well... first post of the new year.
I'll make it a quick one cuz I'm hungry lol.
I'm 20 now!! lol No longer a teenager! Weird... but at the mo I dont feel much different. Keep forgetting lol.
Party was good... Had fun DJing... and got quite drunk hehe. But not enough to make me hungover... thank god.
Enough to make love kinda ruin it for me abit though... but I wont go into that. Whats the point in dwelling when nothing can be done lol.
So yea... all in all, good birthday. Lotsa money lol. Which is all goin on my camcorder, BFS/SOD tour and a trip to the theatre if I have enough left lol.
Oh yes... went to see Les Miserable... was very good. Well... amazing actually.

But yea... not too much updatin cuz this entry was supposed to be quick.... I'm gonna go off to Maccie D's [McDonalds lol] and then come back and get lotsa slash done!! Yay!! lol. Expect more from Life as a heartthrob and for Shannon... maybe Chapter 28! If not... tomorrow.

Over and out.... and see u all in about an hour! :D

Maccies here I come....

~ DJ

Love sucks...
Just as a nice not to start this entry off with.
Dont worry... I'm not losing my "smiler-ness"... everyone goes through love shit now and again... not gonna let it get me down too much.
But yea... it does... in my experience in the past 2 years anyway.
And... I'm stupid lol.
In so many ways.... dopey for a start. I keep forgetting to attatch things on emails!! lol As Shannon will tell you. haha.

On another note.... its my birthday on the 30th... I'm gonna be 20... Man. Its weird. I'll never be a teenager again after that. Strange to think isnt it. Dont like it lol. Makes me feel old. At 20 lol. God what am I gonna be like when I'm 40. Ha.

Gahhhhh the playlist.... added some... Muppet Christmas Carol songs, Millenium Prayer by Cliff Richard [call me sad yes... but I love that song], Merry Christmas Everyone by Shakin Stevens [in the spirit lol], some Pussy cat dolls [lol I have such random taste in music], Mad World from Donnie Darko [possibly the most depressing song in the world... but still like it] and added Transilvania to my McFly stash... Good old Doug lol.

I wanna write I fic that I can post up on mcfly slash man!!! I LURVE We Are The Young and noway am I abandoning it but.... I cant think of another one to do... any good ideas? Any requests?

I'm gonna go just carry on with WATY for now though. Chapter 26 lol. Wow.

~ Jozey

Well... I'm back.

I'm sure you all have no idea what I mean by that.... So I will graciously
explain lol......

Back in the day... when I was my old self... All throughout my life I was known as like a happy go lucky person. Laid back and a lot of places I went on holiday or worked I'd get nicknamed "Smiler" cuz I was just... always smilin. It took a lot to completely bother and depress me for more than a few minutes. And I was always really bubbly with people and mad and would talk to anyone... Not overly confident but just... happy.
Anyway... Two years ago I broke up with my long term boyfriend in a rather horrible way... And ever since then... the past two years I havent been the same person... I've had a lot of nasty issues with myself, been paranoid about what people think of me, been very dependant on one or two people, had trouble trusting people, been depressed quite a few times [when I honestly never had been at all before]...
I thought maybe it was me growing up... and that these were just issues I had to face [weird and stupid as they were... I ownt go into detail]... But I was honestly not happy.... I'd have my moments and I wouldnt complain most of the time but.... I was just terribly unhappy with who I was. Issues issues [like I said... wont go there].
Anyway... I never put my thumb on it but the other day I was reading my old old livejournal and I could almost pinpoint the time when I changed... When I lost my cool... When I snapped, so to speak. And you know what... It was all because of what happened between me and my ex.... I mean... Not all the issues I had were anything to do with him and I was obviously way over the guy himself a good while ago but the experience obviously scarred me more than I realised..... Because it really was THEN that I wasnt the same again.

I realised how stupid that was.... but hey, you cant help how things affect you can you?

Anyway... For some reason... nothing particularily good happened... But at a certain moment at work on Saturday it was like my old self made a re-appearance back inside me. My old, hyper, smilin, bubbly, happyful self.... and I then realised that I truley hadnt felt like that for over 2 years. I've been feeling so much better.... Like I'm "Smiler"again ever since that night.... and its like maybe... finally... I've recovered from what that break up did to me. I dont know why.... nothing major has happened. I dont have a boyfriend [and I've realised.... I dont bloody need one!!], Stace is with Dave and has less time for me [but thats fine.... im ok with it]... So I have no idea what sparked all this off but I know I'm happy. I feel at one with myself again and its FUCKIN awesome.

Stupid as it sounds I do think writing has helped. Its given me something that I really enjoy doing to care about... and that other people are enjoying my work. Especially with 'We are the Young'... Being given good feedback for doin something I love so much is great.... even if it is a little thing like this.... When your me and you've had the past stupid two years.... every little helps.

Looks like I'm gonna be a regular on here ;)
More fics to come. Really wish I could show more people 'We are the Young'... tis my baby... I love it lol. But Shannon can be my one fan there... im happy with that lol *waves to her*

And to finish... have added some Son of Dork to my playlist...
Party's over
Eddie's Song
Boyband
Ticket outta loserville
Holly... I'm the one

How could I have forgotten my James.... and Steve and Dave and the rest lol. Love them so.

<3 Much love to the playlist <3 Tis pure sex..... as Is the Flones-ness <3

Love to all

~ Smiler Dozey Jozey

P.S. Died my hair PURPLE!

My playlist at the moment... for everyones information lol [cuz im sure ur all so bothered].
This is sex to me at the moment seriously...

*Bubblewrap -McFly
*Footloose -Kenny Loggins
*Friday Night -McFly
*Ghostbusters -Ray Parker Jr.
*High School Never Ends -Bowling for soup
*Home is where the Heart is -McFly
*Little Joanna -McFly
*Loco in Acapulco -The Four Tops .... Ok so this song isnt on there yet but it should be!
*Luckiest Loser -Bowling for soup
*Sorry's not good enough -McFly
*Val Kilmer -Bowling for soup
*We are the young -McFly ......... My favourite song of all time [Yes, finally somthing has beaten 'Girl All the Bad Guys Want']
*When we die -Bowling for soup

Both the new McFly album and the new BFS album are totally epic! Keepin me smilin..... not that life is so bad atm though tbh. Wow lol. I think Jozey is back!! Almost. hehe. After like 2 years... over that. Pfft. I've missed me lol. Not gonna speak too soon though. And dont ask me what I'm rambling about.
On another note.... I bloody hate bein ill.... I feel shit.... dont feel like doing anything.... except sittin ere writin lol. Any requests for fics? I have a free day tomorrow. Stuck at home sick.
Chapter 13 of 'We are the young' will be written but I wanted to do somethin different too.... Hmmmm.
Ideas?

Sis came home drunk 2nite.... was rather amusing.... bless her. Love her to bits.
And... the three fitties.... DANNY JONES, TOM FLETCHER AND JARET REDDICK!! [also the three greatest male singers in my eyes]... They deserved a mention.... cuz they are too damn hot for words.
I think I am back you know.... woopdidoo! hehe :D :D :D

.:Dozey Jozey Wozey:.

My lifes been changing alot over the past week or two...

Me and Stace [my best mate] have had our biggest bust ups yet... deciding we should spend less time together... I went from absolutely crushed to... kinda ok with it.
Mainly because... bad as it sounds... I have been getting into some new things to keep me occupied.

I'm addicted to writing at the mo... [especially McFly slash lol... and reading it of course].... But I've really got back into writing... after a break of rather a few years.
Thats been making me happy... cuz im really enjoying it and getting back into it again... is keeping me awake late but at least im not bored.

Also... have got some new "thursday night" buddies.... which is awesome... not to mention that I really like one of the guys in the lil group there. I havent liked anyone properly in aaages... so this is a good sign... even if I dont pull him lol. I'm not a freak anymore.

Stace is offcially going out with her b/f Dave now.... which is kinda weird.... but I'm happy for her, she likes him a alot. It is weird tho... she'll sit by him on the bus instead of me now. Not being jealous I swear [*shifty eyes* lol]... but its always been me... with lil tings like that... for so long. So, yeah.... weird... especially with her wanting to spend less time with me and all. Hurts. But like I said.... I am now alot more ok with it than I thought I would be. Which is good. I'm glad. It's the way I should be.

But, back onto the subject fo what you'll all be interested in.... McFly slash.... Thanx for all my feedback on "Freckles"... I really enjoyed writing that after all. Wanna start another one... or two... now..... But I was thinking I'd get people to vote.... gimme ideas ofthe sort of thing they'd like to read... i.e. smutt, deaths, first time, mcfly babies.... I dunno.... anything.
I'm pretty partial to Flones though so its probably gonna be that for now... but I will write some Fludd and maybe Poynter/jones at some point....

I'm addicted to mcfly slash atm lol.... Its giving me an extra hobbie tho so thats helpful.

~ Jozey

Yay!
I'm currently in the process of writing my first McFly slash... Im currently on my 6th chapter.
I would have started posting them up u see but the trouble is.... I only started it as abit of a practise and abit of fun cuz I was lovin the "Teenage dirtbag" fic by freakonsale [*waves*].
Cool fic... very funny... I recommend it.
Yea so anyway.... I kinda started writing a Flonsey rip off of that.
Its not completely the same at all... is quite different in someways but I have to admit I have stolen one or two ideas *slaps self on wrist* lol
I've told the author and im not gonna post it unless she reads it and tells me I can cuz that wouldnt be fair.
But i just wanted to post and say that... was proud of myself lol its not ended up being that bad either... well, for me.... which is probably pretty dire compared to the standards on here.
Anyway.... enough ramblings.
~ Dozey... the ripper offer x

I dispise Sundays.
They are the most tiring day of the week for me... and I dont get to see my best mate. Well.... any of my mates.
Had work once already and gotta go back at 6. Dont like it.
lol... But lets not moan shall we.... Helloooo to all.... I need to start gettin into this LiveJournal thing. Ive spent all my time on here reading lovely McFlySlash stories rather than posting entries or anything. Well.... i suppose it was the main reason I got one.
Im really considering the idea of givin writin my own story a go.... but I think im too much of a whimp lol.
I just couldnt compare to the fabulous writin that goes on round here. U all rock!!
We need more Flones though.
Mind u.... that video today did open my eyes to the Fluddyness.... Hmm.... wow.... what is the world comin to?
Yep.... im a Tom fan.... majorly lol
~ Dozey me

Man im in a lazy mood today....
I just cannot be arsed with any of this profile, diary entry balls.... Im usually ok with it.
Good day to start a journal ey? lol
I do appologise guys.... I'll be more upbeat soon. Its late at night and I havent had a dose of good Flones slash fiction in too long lol.
Anyone help?
~ Dozey